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Karen's DeadJournal:
| Tuesday, February 2nd, 2010 | |
| 10:03 pm | It's 2010. and already February. So. I'm a C.P.C. now. Still in Vermont, still happy with Bryon, still living with his parents. We hope to have our own place by November. Sooner if we can, but November is the goal. Once again I should be in bed but I'm distracted by the Interwebs. Woo. k bai DJ. see you in a month or two. |
| Wednesday, November 25th, 2009 | |
| 11:34 pm | Hmm... I said the next time I would update I would be in Vermont... sadly that is not quite true. Oh I still moved there. But at this moment I am in CT, home for thanksgiving... as much as I can still call this place home anyway. Tonight I feel as if I may have not made the best decision regarding which friends I chose to keep and which ones I chose to break contact with. I am satisfied with the fact that is was these said decisions that led me to Bryon, for whom I am grateful to have every day. But now I think I need to make up for past mistakes. Or to be a little less cryptic, I'm pissed off at Kelly for procrastinating, pissed at everyone for not appreciating my sacrifices regarding the apartment, and angry at myself for not getting the chance to apologize to Matt in person. In other news, my car shit the bed so I bought a new one. I am now the proud owner of a 2010 Hyundai Accent, in Dark Sapphire Pearl. It's purdy. But it needs a bath. ^^;; Umm... I guess that's it. Happy Thankgiving, and I'll see you at Christmas, or something. Goddamn I need to go to bed. Current Mood:  distressedCurrent Music: "The Kill" - 30 Seconds to Mars |
| Monday, August 31st, 2009 | |
| 9:38 pm | So yeah and stuff. Wow I haven't updated since June? Woah.... well, time to give the skinny to the.... 3 people who peek at this. I used to see updates from Nico but even she's been quiet for a while. Anyway. School is nearly done; our last day is Wednesday. I quit Macy's on Saturday and I've got two jobs lined up in Vermont. Bryon and I are doing more than great; we're actually going to be moving in together soon... well, okay, we're moving in with his parents, but his family fucking adores me, and we're all real excited about the transition. I can't believe how well everything is working out.... it's almost too good to be true. But yeah. When I next update this (in about two months or so... lol) I will be posting from a cozy home up in northern Vermont. Take care folks. Current Mood:  awakeCurrent Music: "Obsessed" - MC |
| Thursday, June 4th, 2009 | |
| 2:28 am | More shit no one cares about I've discovered that LJ does work on the school servers... rarely. In the past two months I've gotten it to go twice. But that's ok, since even LJ is slow these days, and I can connect to so many more people on Facebook. So on the plus side I've discovred a place I can park my car during the week and it won't get towed, which is fucking awesome. This means I can stay on campus during the week and still be able to come and go as I please. It also means I don't have to pay Dill or Keith to shuttle me back and forth from Waterbury to Hartford. Life is good. Bryon is nothing short of amazing. I won't bore you with all the sappy details, since anyone who IS looking at this could probably care less, but I will say that I don't think anyone has ever been this good to me, and I really think he could spend forever with me. I'd like that. Oh well. Time to finish my bedtime snack and then it's sleepytime for Karen-chan. Got class in the morning and whatnot. Current Mood:  sleepyCurrent Music: FF: Echoes of Time |
| Monday, April 27th, 2009 | |
| 5:37 pm | Stuffers I really need to devise a new journal theme. So what's new deadjournalians? I would be posting this on LJ but LJ doessn't like to work on the school computers. To fill people in, I have a boyfriend now. His name is Bryon, and he's also going to the school, but for the full cooking course, not the baking like I am. Also unlike me, he lives on campus... so I'm camping in his dorm for the week. Unfortunately I can't keep my car bere because I'm not a resident and getting a parking pass was too much of a hassle, so I got dropped off here last night by keith and I'll get picked up Thursday night. Which means a few days of taking the bus to go places. Pwoot. Uh, there's not much else I can say. Except it's fucking hot for April. That is all. ~K P.S. Tom Chaplin is smexy! Current Mood:  chipperCurrent Music: "Somewhere Only We Know" - Keane |
| Friday, December 5th, 2008 | |
| 3:07 am | I really gotta change the theme on my journals. Anyway... yeah. So glad people update here still. v_v But, for those who occassionaly take a peek... I'm in college now. I started on Nov. 10 at Connecticut Culinary Academy, going fulltime days, while working fulltime nights. Life is crazy, but it's only for 14 months. A rather miniscule amount of time to dedicate for something that's going to help me forever. No boyfriend, buuuut... there are two guys at school who have expressed an interest in dating me. Too bad for them, I refuse to date anyone, mainly on the basis that I don't have time to commit myself the way a girlfriend should, and I'm way too focused on me and my career, and that's not fair to anyone I would call a "boyfriend". There's L'aron, who is 19, short, black, and clingy as hell. I admit we hit it off instantly, and there's definately some chemistry, but I hate the way he talks about me "eventually finding time". He doesn't understand I'm trying to balance school, work, and social life. "Boyfriend" and "relationship" have no part in that equation. I mean, he's very nice... but there's a line between "nice" and a "pushover", and... I dunno. I think if he hadn't hinted at making things more serious, I might not have fallen flat with him. It was the same situation with Matt: I warned him not to fall for me, but I think he already has. And there's Jay, who is tall, white, an ex-Marine, and 29. o_o;; Jay is, honestly, more of my type, and he's certainly a very mature person to talk to, but I'm a little put off by his age. Granted, he doesn't LOOK 29, I would've said 24-25 at most, but he is. I can't really figure out what's attracting him to me, when there are plenty of other girls he could've tried for. At the very least, he respects that I'm keeping busy and frankly I think he just appreciates any time I will give to him. Since I have Thursdays off through December, I think we might get together each evening after school just to chill. We went to a local pub today and I had a very nice time. Again, I don't want to be partial because I don't plan on "picking" one over the other, because Jay has some faults too... I just think I could deal with his easier. It should figure, that I'm single for almost three years, and then when the opportunity actually comes for me to have a local relationship, it becomes near impossible. Thank you Fate, for fucking around with me again. In other news, Dill is livng with me now. For how long, I'm not sure. Things haven't been perfect, but I really can't complain, so I won't. Alright, I need to bed now. I have the day off from work AND school tomorrow and I plan to make the most of my free time by catching up on some Christmas shopping. Next update likely sometime in 2009. Bai. |
| Wednesday, September 10th, 2008 | |
| 3:02 am | Well, I guess I can't feel too bad about not posting in here, because no one else is either. I have my own apartment now. It's alright. Far from perfect, but I realize that I don't think I'll ever live with my parents again, unless it became where living in my car was the only other option. I recently got a promotion at my job as a trainer, which I offically began my training for today. It's alright, I get a dollar added to my base pay and an extra dollar on top of that whenever I am training. Pretty sweet. I've decided that I like Pennsylvania and can totally see myself living there, although retiring in downtown San Jose is still on the list. Some days I wonder just what am I working towards, or what I'm working for. It gives me a rather cynical outlook towards my entire fibre of being and earlier tonight I questioned whether I really want to feel feelings anymore. It's horribly emo but at times not a bad idea. Alright I'm done. Maybe I'll update around Christmas. Current Mood:  blankCurrent Music: "Sunday Bloody Sunday" - U2 |
| Sunday, May 25th, 2008 | |
| 9:39 pm | Well shit. So, the lowdown. My cat died on April 22nd due to blunt trauma to the head via passing automobile. I still miss him terribly, but at least I've stopped crying about it. Keith dumped Stephie this morning, which is going to make my living situation QUITE unpleasant, since he's hauling ass tomorrow and I'm going to be struggling to find a new place by the end of the week. My car's gas mileage is AMAZING. I'm going to be so sad when I have to replace that vehicle. Being up until 3 and then being at work for 6=not fun. Not fun at all. I want to have a place to call "home" again. Happy Memorial Day! :D Current Mood:  nervous |
| Sunday, February 17th, 2008 | |
| 2:18 am | Hot damn. I never thought my updates would be so infrequent here that I can see posts from 2006 on the front page. But then again, no one updates on here anymore, so I don't. I doubt I'll ever delete this journal, but meh. Even on LJ I'm posting maybe twice a month at most. That's minimal compared to how I used to post. So anyway, my throat feels like I swallowed a brillo pad and it's making the rest of me miserable, which sucks since the rest of me feels fine. I don't have headaches, I don't have nausea... I hate it because I've been up at least an extra hour a night since Wednesday because my throat hurts so damn bad. I suspect it's laryngitis, because my glands aren't swollen, but my throat is (or it was, anyway... it's not too bad now). I'm also worried my cat is getting sick (the big cat, not the kitten. The kitten is fine). J.D.'s been acting... weird the past two days. He's been sleeping a lot more the past few days, and he seems sluggish. His appetite's been okay though... he's just been acting more reserved and lethargic than usual. I mean, yeah, the cat is an asshole... but he's still my kitty, and he loves me, even if it's only because I'm the one who feeds him. He keeps my feet warm at night, and that is not something you can just up and replace. The puppy is fine. Peeing up a storm all over the house (how does a dog that small hold so much piss?) but no major scares since Christmas. I'm moving out when the lease is up. I don't know where or with who yet, but this living situation, while isn't bad, isn't making me happy either, and lately it seems like they've been arguing more than usual, and I really don't feel comfortable with that. For all I know everything is hunky-dory, but I'm picking up more negative energy than I'm used to and I'm not okay with that. Stephie, by now, knows that I plan to move out eventually, but even I've said that I'm not sure when I will. I mean, if things get better between now and July, I'll be more than happy to stick with them a little longer. Sadly I really doubt I'm going to feel more contented. And I'm not saying that Keith and Stephie are necessarily bad people to live with... just that we don't have very compatible lifestyles. I guess that's it. Maybe the next time I'm here it might still be 2008. Current Mood:  sick |
| Thursday, November 29th, 2007 | |
| 1:07 pm | Wow I need to update here hardcore. Birthday was last month, been out drinking a few times, nothing spectacular. Usually just me and Sam going to Friday's once a week, although we haven't been out in a while due to our scheduling. I quit the Dollar Store on Oct. 29th and started working for Macy*s on Nov. 6th. I was supposed to start the 31st but they pushed back my orientation. Note I said FOR Macy*s not AT Macy*'s, although I can use my employee discount at any Macy*s store. I work for their distribution center in Cheshire in the receiving mezzanine, Mon-Fri from 2:30-11. Since it's the holiday season they've been offering us overtime and I've been taking quite a bit of it. Things with John are at a bit of a standstill. I like him and I care about him but I reflect on whether or not I'm really in love with him like I thought. He never says it anymore, so I don't, and things seems to have fizzled a little bit. I'm not really sure what I want anymore. I guess that's it. Prolly update again around Christmas. |
| Friday, September 21st, 2007 | |
| 12:03 am | He told me he loves me... Ah Julie, how right you are. How wonderful it feels. |
| Wednesday, September 12th, 2007 | |
| 1:43 am | Stuff In the new place, leeching off someone's Internet. I got fired Monday night, but I have another job already. I start at Dollar Tree on Friday. Typing on a laptop takes getting used to. No it's not my laptop. When the dog farts it smells really bad. Endlog. Current Mood: sleepy |
| Thursday, September 6th, 2007 | |
| 2:49 pm | The month has been a whole torrent of ups and downs. Overall, I'd say things are good. Current Mood:  tiredCurrent Music: "For the First Time" - Lifehouse |
| Saturday, August 11th, 2007 | |
| 12:52 am | ahhh so tired. But haven't updated here in a bit. Have an apartment. Been moving in over the last week. Tired as fuck from it. Hate moving, but so far like the new arrangement. John is amazing. I like him so much, and hate that he lives so far away. I don't want to go as far as to say I love him because I'm afraid I'll push him away if I do, but I adore him like no one else and I know he cares for me greatly in return. We've decided not to commit to anything officially, but we're both interested in seeing where things go and we've been talking about him coming up to see me sometime after New years. I can't wait; the time we spent together in Baltimore was just euphoric. It's weird, I keep dreaming of him and I think I'm living the weekend again. I miss him so much, but I'm glad for the time we had, and every time I go to bed I remind myself I'm oen day closer to seeing him again, and it gets me by. Work is work. Yesterday was my first day off in over a week and I loved it. I'm going to hate getting up later today. Car is still running. Needs a tune-up like woah but Larry's getting me a discount on parts. Will need new tires before winter, but I've asked my mom to get them for me for my birthday. I'm gonna be 21, bitches! And it's about fucking time. ugh. okay. energy gone. ttyl Current Mood: exhausted |
| Wednesday, August 1st, 2007 | |
| 2:23 am | He's so wonderful. Current Mood:  loved |
| Thursday, July 12th, 2007 | |
| 4:15 pm | Is nothing sacred anymore? |
| Tuesday, July 3rd, 2007 | |
| 11:52 pm | I don't know your face no more So. Current Mood:  pensiveCurrent Music: "We Might As Well Be Strangers" - Keane |
| Wednesday, June 27th, 2007 | |
| 10:38 pm | Rawr! Why can't I like someone who's available? ...and not living in another state?! =( *whine* Current Mood:  okayCurrent Music: TV |
| Saturday, June 23rd, 2007 | |
| 1:10 am | Okay, yeah, so. 8 days, or something like that. Idk. My previous entry still pretty much says how I feel. Although, I must say, my dear friend Fiermonte has quite a way with words... "We're a family, Karen. And you're part of the family. It just wouldn't feel right if you weren't there." I'll admit, I hadn't thought of it quite that way before. And my horoscope's been saying that I can handle everything that comes my way, both big and small. I don't doubt my ability to work this out... I'm just still unsure whether or not I'm making a mistake. Current Mood: concerned |
| Tuesday, May 29th, 2007 | |
| 12:43 am | Okay, so, latest date to mark on my calendar: July 1st. Why? It's when I go house-hunting. It's a long story, but to sum it up, Keith and I were discussing about other people that would be fun to have move into an apartment with us, when I said, "Well, why don't I buy a paper, and we can see what HOUSES are for rent?" So yeah. Not to boast, but it was my idea. Lest we pray it's one I don't regret. Current Mood:  curiousCurrent Music: Shin-Chan |